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listening to a sermon, from Prov. iii. 5, 6, the light of the divine countenance shone upon her soul, her sorrow gave way to joy, and she was able to exult"O Lord I will praise thee, for though thou wast angry with me, thine anger is turned away, and behold now thou comfortest me.'

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Subsequent to this eventful period, she was often in spiritual darkness; clouds not unfrequently obscured her prospects; still her delight was with the saints on earth: like pious Ruth to these she stedfastly adhered, saying, "This people shall be my people, and their God my God." She evinced a relish for the social and public means of grace by punctual and regular attendance ; the word of God was sweeter than honey or the honeycomb to her spiritual taste. After her education was completed, being desirous of turning her accomplishments to some advantage, she employed herself in instructing the juvenile branches of her brother's family. In the Sabbathschool she laboured diligently, and took a lively interest in the temperance cause. She was also the principal means of forming a Tract Society__in connection with the Wesleyan Association chapel in her native village. life like a summer's brook passed quickly but not unprofitably away. sympathies were both extensive and refined, she knew how to weep with those that wept, and to rejoice with those that rejoiced. At the age of twenty-two, she had to endure a severe trial in the death of a much beloved sister, whose memoir is inserted in the first volume of this Magazine.

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The thirst for knowledge, which she displayed in her early days, continued to increase through life. The books she selected for perusal were not those which simply amuse, but such as required close and serious thought; she searched the Scriptures daily with avidity, and thus obtained a minute and extensive acquaintance with the truths of the Bible. She had a taste for the beautiful and sublime in creation; residing in one of the most luxuriant counties in England, and surrounded by the most picturesque and lovely scenery, her mind was often filled with rapturous delight as she gazed upon the beauties of creation, and praised their glorious author.

The pious exertions of our departed friend were unabated, till the close of the year 1845, when she became seriously indisposed; very soon after alarming symtoms of gutta serena came on; followed by disease of the brain, and other distressing maladies. For ten months she endured a complication of aggravated suffering, which baffled medical skill. During this protracted and painful affliction, I had frequent opportunities of conversing with her— as her father's house is the preacher's home-when labouring in that part of the circuit. Her submission and exemplary patience under the most excruciating sufferings I shall not soon forget; in no instance did she murmur, on the contrary she would often say, "It is of the Lord's mercies that I am not consumed." She had clear and scriptural views of God's special providence, and of the atonement of Christ; upon these topics she loved to dwell. One day as I sat by her side she said, "A conviction of the truth of God's special providence enables me to say Thy will be done,' and his infinite mercy saves me from despair."

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As our late sister came nearer to Jordan's flood her fears fled; for some weeks before she crossed the river of death, she enjoyed a greater degree of the peace of God than she had been able to realise for some time before; the love of Christ presented itself to her mind in all its impressive grandeur and sublimity. Now, she began to seem like some tempest beaten mariner who had come within sight of land; she longed to cast anchor: she was more than composed, for she was cheerful; more than peaceful, for she was happy. The last Sabbath she spent on earth, while a paroxyism of pain agonized her frame, and harrowed up the feelings of her endeared relatives, with holy animation, she shouted, " Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will to men!' The following morning she exclaimed

"I cannot rest till pure within, Till I am wholly lost in thee.'

Jesus draw near-O come

'I want to bathe my weary soul In seas of heavenly rest,

Where not a wave of trouble rolls Across the peaceful breast.''

A few hours before she launched away, her affectionate mother said "You would now, if able, tell us much about the preciousness of Jesus, and the value of religion; would you not?" When she replied, with striking emphasis "I would! I would! But the hand of death was upon her; the last words she distinctly uttered were-

"His feet were nailed to yonder tree, To trample down our sin;

His hands stretched out they all may see, To take his murderers in." Soon after which, she breathed her happy spirit into the arms of the Saviour on the 17th of August, 1846. Thus, after a voyage of thirty years and two months on this troubled sea, she heaved over the last billow, and entered within that celestial port, where shrieks of pain are exchanged for shouts of rapture the last danger past-the last tempest hushed the last enemy subdued the last pang endured-the last tear shed-and all-FOR EVER.

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T. NEWTON.

MRS. ALICE BULLOCK, OF NANTWICH.

The subject of this memoir was born in the village of Westaston, about two miles from Nantwich, Cheshire, in the year 1804. When she was in her childhood, her parents took her with them to the parish church. When she was fourteen years of age, she left the parental roof to go to reside with Mr. Mortimer, a Wesleyan minister, who was then stationed in the Nantwich circuit. During the time she stayed with him, she became the subject of very serious impressions, and those impressions were deepened by witnessing the consistent deportment, and persevering devotion of that upright Christian minister. After Mr. Mortimer left Nantwich, she went to reside in Liverpool with Mr. and Mrs. Harrison, Ironmongers. She had not been long with them before they had proof of her kind and amiable disposition; and were so pleased with her general deportment, that they placed implicit confidence in her, and treated her as one of the family. While she remained with this family, her mother was seized with paralysis. Under these circumstances, her father wrote for her to return home. She mentioned the matter to Mrs. Harrison, who, being much attached to her, advised her not to go, assuring her that her sisters would take care of her mother. In a very short time, however, she received another letter from her father, stating the severity of her mother's affliction, and urging her to return home, with as little delay as possible, that she might take her mother's place in the day school. This summons she immediately obeyed.

When she arrived at Westaston, and found her mother in so helpless a state, she was greatly distressed in mind; and at once undertook to take care of the day school, and attend to her mother, both by day and by night. Her mother's affliction continued for many years, during which, Alice attended her with great filial kindness. While she was attending on her, she was led to reflect on her own state, and found, on examination, that she was living without a personal interest in Christ. She felt herself to be a great sinner, and was so much concerned on account of her soul, that she resolved to embrace every opportunity of waiting upon the Lord. Her brother being a class leader, she went with him to the class, and in a very short time after this, she obtained a sense of God's pardoning mercy. This great blessing she obtained while wrestling with the Lord in private, in her own bed room. O, with what thrilling delight was she accustomed to speak of that precious hour! On account of her mother's affliction, her opportunities of hearing the word preached, and meeting with God's people, were but few; however,

when she had an opportunity of going to the house of God, she availed herself of it, and frequently expressed her gratitude to God for the gracious seasons she enjoyed with the Lord's people. Being, straitened in her circumstances, and yet feeling it to be her duty to do something, if possible, towards the support of God's cause, she was accustomed to stay up after the rest of the family had retired to rest, to knit, and sometimes, even by moonlight, for the purpose of saving a few pence to devote to this purpose. Six years ago, she left her native village, and went to reside in the town of Nantwich. Having there more frequent opportunites of meeting with God's people, she felt the benefit, and more fully partook of the Spirit of Christ. She was very regular in her attendance, at the Monday night prayer meeting, also at her class and the band meetings, where she was very useful in leading the singing and prayer. At these means, her soul seemed filled with the love of God. Her value was also felt in these means of grace, on account of the happy way she had of leading penitents to the foot of the cross, and pointing them to "the Lamb of God that taketh away the sins of the world." In private life she glorified God by keeping his commandments, and by cheerfully submitting to his will. Amidst her many domestic trials and privations, she was never heard to utter a single murmur, except on one occasion, about six years ago. Her dear husband was very poorly, and there being little hope entertained of his recovery, she expressed herself in the language of distrust and despondence. Her husband reminded her of the glorious promise of the Almighty, "I will be an husband to the widow, and a father to the fatherless," and immediately the unhallowed feeling was checked. She loved private prayer, and made it a point to retire a few minutes in the middle of the day, that she might hold converse with her Maker. Her fatherin-law states, that he has often been a witness of her fervency in these holy exercises; and, indeed, all who were in the house when she came from these devotions, might perceive, by her glowing countenance, that she had been in the presence-chamber of Deity.

As a wife she was loving, faithful, and obedient; often, when her husband appeared depressed, she tried to encourage him, and, in this sense, especially, she proved an help meet for him. As a mother, she was affectionate, kind, and indulgent. She wanted a little more firmness; she too often acted as though she thought that love, in every case, would do the deed. If she had any failing, it was on this point; and yet her fervent and frequent prayers for her children, proved the strong desire she felt for their eternal salvation. As a friend, she was sincere, affectionate, free, and faithful. As a neighbour, she was honest, upright, and peaceable. Those who have had the opportunity of witnessing her general deportment for the last few months, state that she has been living in constant readiness for glory. Her end was sudden; but it was safe. On Saturday morning, the 13th of February, she awoke about three o'clock, and began to praise the Lord, for having given her a comfortable night. She dropped asleep again, for a short time, and soon after four o'clock she awoke her husband, requesting him to get up and pray for her, as she was very poorly. These were her last words; and in a few minutes, her spirit took its flight to a better world, to be for ever with the Lord.

Mrs. Bullock having met in class with the Revds. C. Edwards, and T. A. Bayley, when they travelled in this circuit, they have given the following statements. Mr. Edwards says, in writing to her husband-"After she came to reside in Nantwich, and joined my class, she was a source of great comfort to me. We had some precious seasons; and in the blessed work then going on, she felt a deep interest, and took a very active part. She was very constant in her attendance upon the means of grace, and her experience was remarkable in the following particulars:-1st. Deep humility. If possible, this she carried to an extreme. She was clothed with humility, as with a garment. She was very retiring, and sometimes she spoke of herself and her

experience, in the most depreciating manner. 2nd. There was much of true Christian simplicity in her experience, and, consequently, of Godly sincerity in her character. It often afforded me much gratification to hear her, in the most artless manner, relate her trials and her conflicts. She would often weep, and with the most child-like simplicity, relate the gracious dealings of God with her soul. 3rd. She had very clear views of the plan of salvation by simple faith. She took the promises of God as her own, and when encouraging penitents to look to the Saviour, it appeared as though she could almost take their case upon herself, and in the arms of faith and prayer, bring them to Jesus." Mr. Bayley says-" During my two years' stay in the Nantwich Circuit, I had many opportunities of making myself acquainted with the character and conduct of our lamented sister Bullock; and I have no hesitation in saying, that the opinion I formed of her was a very high one. Of her experience, I had an excellent opportunity of acquiring knowledge, as she met in my own class. Her regularity of attendance, consistency of deportment, scriptural experience, and evident sincerity, afforded me much satisfaction. Of her conversion to God, I entertain no doubt; it was clear and attested by the scriptural evidence of a humble, pious, and zealous life. Her love to God was tried by many severe exercises; and her faith in God, and her faithfulness to him, was put to the test, and sustained the trial. She was careful to watch over her own heart, and hence her experience was not uninteresting, but contained much of an instructive and edifying character. She was also eminently of a meek and quiet spirit, which in the sight of God is of great price.' Our departed sister felt deeply for the cause of God, and prayed fervently for its prosperity; she rejoiced in the triumphs of divine grace, and mourned when the cause of God did not prosper. When, a few months since, I re-visited Nantwich, after an absence of more than two years, I was glad to find her holding fast the grace of God, and praying for the peace of Jerusalem." In conclusion, I would remark. Her removal is a mysterious and painful providence; but who shall say to Him who has removed her, "What doest thou?" "Clouds and darkness are round about him, but justice and judgment are the habitation of his throne." Her removal was unexpected, but we believe, not unprepared for; it was sudden, but we believe it was to glory. "Full many fall as sudden, not as safe."

E. W.

MR. JAMES GAWKROGER, OF HEBDEN-BRIDGE.

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THE subject of the following obituary, was born at a place called Elms, in the parish of Sowerby, in the year 1780. When he was a youth, very serious and powerful impressions were made on his mind, whilst attending some morning prayer meetings, held in the Dog-house Methodist Chapel: but it cannot be ascertained, that he was ever connected with the Methodist Society, until he was in his 35th year. He was then residing at a village called Lumbutts; about a mile and a half from Todmorden. After a few years, he left the Conference Methodists, and joined the "New Connexion,' and continued in its membership until his removal to the vicinity of Hebdenbridge. He then took sittings for himself and family, in the Heptonstall Methodist Chapel. But having liberal views on the subject of Church government, he was kept from re-entering the Methodist communion. And it was not until the formation of the Wesleyan Methodist Association, that he again became a member of a religious society. When the Association was called into existence, not many weeks were suffered to elapse, before he enrolled himself as one of its members; and from that time, up to his dissolution, he maintained a steady and consistent walk, and proved himself a firm and zealous friend of the church he had chosen. Passing over other evidences of his

attachment, it may be sufficient to mention that, in addition to the surrender of fifty shares, of the value of £1 each, in the Cross Lanes Chapel, he has left £100 to its funds; and also £2 per annum to the Circuit quarterly board, so long as his leader lives.

I was in the habit of visiting the deceased, during my previous residence in this circuit; and both then, and since my return, my mind has often been struck by his obviously strong attachment to the people of God. But the most prominent trait in his character was liberality; his hand was open to assist in every good work. In him the poor found a sympathizing and generous helper. A friend says-"I could seldom go to his house without finding some poor person there, whom he always made welcome to such as he had."

When conversing with his religious friends, as also when at the class meeting, he would often express his dissatisfaction with himself. Yet, he was ever desiring to be a Christian, and labouring to have his heart and life conformed to the Gospel of Jesus.

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His last illness commenced in the early part of December, and was at times very distressing; but he endured patiently, committing himself to God, 'as to a faithful Creator." A few days before he died, his leader made special enquiry, as to his spiritual state; when he replied, "I believe Jesus died for me; I believe he will save me." The day before he died, I visited him for the last time; and having reminded him of the blessedness of those, who, on the approach of death, have a good hope of heaven, and that I trusted he had such a hope; he answered, "Yes! Yes!" The following day, a little before one o'clock, he fell asleep, being sixty-seven years of age. His riper age was

"Mark'd with some acts of goodness every day,

And watch'd by eyes that lov'd him, calm and sage,
Faded his declining years away;

Cheerful he gave his being up, and went

To share the holy rest, that waits a life well spent."

E. B.

MR. THOMAS BARNES, OF CARLISLE, CUMBERLAND.

MR. BARNES was born in Carlisle, September 1801. As soon as he was able to understand, his parents taught him the fear of the Lord, and at the age of twelve years, he enjoyed peace with God. His abhorrence of sin, at that early period, was so great, that he would put his fingers in his ears, rather than listen to the oaths and blasphemies of the wicked. Unhappily, however, he, like many other young persons, fell from this state of grace, and continued indifferent to the "one thing needful," for a number of years. About the winter of 1825-6, he was led by the conversion of his brother-in-law, Mr. John Turner, again to seek the Lord; and by close study of the Scriptures, and use of the other means of grace, he obtained peace with God by the remission of his sins, through faith in Jesus Christ, in the Conference Methodist Chapel, Fisher-street, under the ministry of the Rev. George Bacon. Mr. Barnes forthwith joined himself to the people of God, began to work for the Lord in the Sabbath school, and continued to labour, zealously, and successfully, as a Sabbath-school teacher and superintendent, until the Sabbath previous to his sudden, and much lamented death. In his unexpected removal, the Association in Carlisle has lost one of its best and staunchest friends; and the society, much and justly, regret his demise. For his kindness of disposition he was highly and deservedly esteemed. With credit to himself," and advantage to the church, he held the following important offices. From twelve to thirteen years, he was superintendent of the Sabbath-school; for thirteen years he was a local preacher; for fourteen years he was a class leader; he was

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