For some new death than for a life Dreaming some rival, sought and found To their charm'd circle, and, half-killing And this, at times, she mingled with his With kisses, round him closed and claspt And this destroy'd him; for the wicked man's But Lionel, when at last he freed himself Confused the chemic labour of the blood, From wife and child, and lifted up a face And tickling the brute brain within the All over glowing with the sun of life, And love, and boundless thanks-the Made havock among those tender cells, sight of this and check'd So frighted our good friend, that turning His power to shape : he loathed himself; to me And saying, 'It is over: let us go’— and once After a tempest woke upon a morn There were our horses ready at the doors-That mock'd him with returning calm, 'Storm, and what dreams, ye holy Gods, what dreams! chance Yet often when the woman heard his foot Left by the Teacher whom he held divine. We do but recollect the dreams that come streams And torrents of her myriad universe, Another and another frame of things knew it Of and belonging to me, as the dog With inward yelp and restless forefoot plies His function of the woodland but the next! I thought that all the blood by Sylla shed Came driving rainlike down again on earth, Not ev'n a rose, were offer'd to thee? Forgetful how my rich proœmion makes 'Deity? nay, thy worshippers. My tongue Trips, or I speak profanely. Which of these Angers thee most, or angers thee at all? And where it dash'd the reddening mea- Not if thou be'st of those who, far aloof dow, sprang No dragon warriors from Cadmean teeth, From envy, hate and pity, and spite and scorn, For these I thought my dream would show Live the great life which all our greatest to me, But girls, Hetairai, curious in their art, worse Than aught they fable of the quiet Gods. In narrowing circles till I yell'd again 'Then, then, from utter gloom stood out the breasts, The breasts of Helen, and hoveringly a sword Now over and now under, now direct, At all that beauty; and as I stared, a fire, fain Would follow, center'd in eternal calm. 'Nay, if thou canst, O Goddess, like ourselves Touch, and be touch'd, then would I cry To kiss thy Mavors, roll thy tender arms of blood That makes a steaming slaughter-house of 'Ay, but I meant not thee; I meant not her, Whom all the pines of Ida shook to see tempt The Trojan, while his neat-herds were abroad; Nor her that o'er her wounded hunter wept Her Deity false in human-amorous tears; 'Is this thy vengeance, holy Venus, Decided fairest. Rather, O ye Gods, thine, Poet-like, as the great Sicilian called Because I would not one of thine own Calliope to grace his golden verseAy, and this Kypris also did I take doves, That popular name of thine to shadow forth The all-generating powers and genial heat Of Nature, when she strikes thro' the thick blood Of cattle, and light is large, and lambs are glad Nosing the mother's udder, and the bird Makes his heart voice amid the blaze of flowers: 'Look where another of our Gods, the Apollo, Delius, or of older use sware, Except his wrath were wreak'd on wretched man, That he would only shine among the dead Hereafter; tales! for never yet on earth Which things appear the work of mighty Could dead flesh creep, or bits of roast Not follow the great law? My master Whether I mean this day to end myself, I prest my footsteps into his, and meant | Allotted by the Gods: but he that holds Meant? I meant? care once, I have forgotten what I meant : my mind Being troubled, wholly out of sight, and Stumbles, and all my faculties are lamed. sink Past earthquake-ay, and gout and stone, that break 'But who was he, that in the garden snared Body toward death, and palsy, death-in- Picus and Faunus, rustic Gods? a tale all, These prodigies of myriad nakednesses, And fleeting thro' the boundless universe, Totters; a noiseless riot underneath Strikes through the wood, sets all the tops quivering The mountain quickens into Nymph and Faun; And here an Oread-how the sun delights To glance and shift about her slippery sides, And rosy knees and supple roundedness, And budded bosom-peaks-who this way runs 'How should the mind, except it loved Before the rest-A satyr, a satyr, see, them, clasp These idols to herself? or do they fly Now thinner, and now thicker, like the flakes In a fall of snow, and so press in, perforce Of multitude, as crowds that in an hour Of civic tumult jam the doors, and bear The keepers down, and throng, their rags and they The basest, far into that council-hall Where sit the best and stateliest of the land? 'Can I not fling this horror off me again, Seeing with how great ease Nature can smile, Balmier and nobler from her bath of storm, At random ravage? and how easily The mountain there has cast his cloudy slough, Now towering o'er him in serenest air, A mountain o'er a mountain,—ay, and within All hollow as the hopes and fears of men? Follows; but him I proved impossible; Fledged as it were with Mercury's anklewing, Whirls her to me: but will she fling herself, Shameless upon me? Catch her, goatfoot: nay, Hide, hide them, million-myrtled wilder ness, And cavern-shadowing laurels, hide! do I wish What? that the bush were leafless? or to whelm All of them in one massacre? O ye Gods, I know you careless, yet, behold, to you From childly wont and ancient use I callI thought I lived securely as yourselves — No lewdness, narrowing envy, monkey spite, No madness of ambition, avarice, none: Only such cups as left us friendly-warm, My bliss in being; and it was not great; For save when shutting reasons up in rhythm, Or Heliconian honey in living words, 'And therefore now Let her, that is the womb and tomb of all, Great Nature, take, and forcing far apart Those blind beginnings that have made me man, Dash them anew together at her will Is not so far when momentary man grave, The very sides of the grave itself shall To make a truth less harsh, I often grew And even his bones long laid within the pass, Vanishing, atom and void, atom and void, Into the unseen for ever,-till that hour, And since the nobler pleasure seems to My golden work in which I told a truth fade, Why should I, beastlike as I find myself, Not manlike end myself?—our privilege-What beast has heart to do it? And what man, What Roman would be dragg'd in triumph thus? That stays the rolling Ixionian wheel, And numbs the Fury's ringlet-snake, and plucks The mortal soul from out immortal hell, Shall stand: ay, surely: then it fails at last And perishes as I must; for O Thou, Not I; not he, who bears one name with Passionless bride, divine Tranquillity, her Yearn'd after by the wisest of the wise, Whose death-blow struck the dateless Who fail to find thee, being as thou art Without one pleasure and without one pain, doom of kings, When, brooking not the Tarquin in her veins, She made her blood in sight of Collatine And all his peers, flushing the guiltless air, Spout from the maiden fountain in her heart. And from it sprang the Commonwealth, which breaks As I am breaking now! Howbeit I know thou surely must be mine Or soon or late, yet out of season, thus Thus-thus: the soul flies out and dies in the air.' |