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For some new death than for a life Dreaming some rival, sought and found

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To their charm'd circle, and, half-killing And this, at times, she mingled with his

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With kisses, round him closed and claspt And this destroy'd him; for the wicked

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man's

But Lionel, when at last he freed himself Confused the chemic labour of the blood, From wife and child, and lifted up a face And tickling the brute brain within the All over glowing with the sun of life, And love, and boundless thanks-the Made havock among those tender cells, sight of this and check'd

So frighted our good friend, that turning His power to shape : he loathed himself;

to me

And saying, 'It is over: let us go’—

and once

After a tempest woke upon a morn

There were our horses ready at the doors-That mock'd him with returning calm,

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'Storm, and what dreams, ye holy Gods, what dreams!

chance

Yet often when the woman heard his foot
Return from pacings in the field, and ran For thrice I waken'd after dreams. Per-
To greet him with a kiss, the master took
Small notice, or austerely, for his mind
Half buried in some weightier argument,
Or fancy-borne perhaps upon the rise
And long roll of the Hexameter-he past
To turn and ponder those three hundred
scrolls

Left by the Teacher whom he held divine.
She brook'd it not; but wrathful, petulant,

We do but recollect the dreams that come
Just ere the waking: terrible! for it seem'd
A void was made in Nature; all her bonds
Crack'd; and I saw the flaring atom-

streams

And torrents of her myriad universe,
Ruining along the illimitable inane,
Fly on to clash together again, and make

Another and another frame of things
For ever that was mine, my dream, I

knew it

Of and belonging to me, as the dog With inward yelp and restless forefoot plies

His function of the woodland but the next!

I thought that all the blood by Sylla shed Came driving rainlike down again on earth,

Not ev'n a rose, were offer'd to thee?
thine,

Forgetful how my rich proœmion makes
Thy glory fly along the Italian field,
In lays that will outlast thy Deity?

'Deity? nay, thy worshippers. My tongue

Trips, or I speak profanely. Which of these

Angers thee most, or angers thee at all? And where it dash'd the reddening mea- Not if thou be'st of those who, far aloof

dow, sprang

No dragon warriors from Cadmean teeth,

From envy, hate and pity, and spite and

scorn,

For these I thought my dream would show Live the great life which all our greatest

to me,

But girls, Hetairai, curious in their art,
Hired animalisms, vile as those that made
The mulberry-faced Dictator's orgies

worse

Than aught they fable of the quiet Gods.
And hands they mixt, and yell'd and round
me drove

In narrowing circles till I yell'd again
Half-suffocated, and sprang up, and saw—
Was it the first beam of my latest day?

'Then, then, from utter gloom stood out the breasts,

The breasts of Helen, and hoveringly a sword

Now over and now under, now direct,
Pointed itself to pierce, but sank down
shamed

At all that beauty; and as I stared, a fire,
The fire that left a roofless Ilion,
Shot out of them, and scorch'd me that I
woke.

fain

Would follow, center'd in eternal calm.

'Nay, if thou canst, O Goddess, like

ourselves

Touch, and be touch'd, then would I cry
to thee

To kiss thy Mavors, roll thy tender arms
Round him, and keep him from the lust

of blood

That makes a steaming slaughter-house of
Rome.

'Ay, but I meant not thee; I meant

not her,

Whom all the pines of Ida shook to see
Slide from that quiet heaven of hers, and

tempt

The Trojan, while his neat-herds were abroad;

Nor her that o'er her wounded hunter

wept

Her Deity false in human-amorous tears;
Nor whom her beardless apple-arbiter

'Is this thy vengeance, holy Venus, Decided fairest. Rather, O ye Gods, thine, Poet-like, as the great Sicilian called Because I would not one of thine own Calliope to grace his golden verseAy, and this Kypris also did I take

doves,

That popular name of thine to shadow forth

The all-generating powers and genial heat Of Nature, when she strikes thro' the thick blood

Of cattle, and light is large, and lambs are glad

Nosing the mother's udder, and the bird Makes his heart voice amid the blaze of flowers:

'Look where another of our Gods, the
Sun,

Apollo, Delius, or of older use
All-seeing Hyperion—what you will —
Has mounted yonder; since he never

sware,

Except his wrath were wreak'd on wretched man,

That he would only shine among the dead Hereafter; tales! for never yet on earth

Which things appear the work of mighty Could dead flesh creep, or bits of roast

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Not follow the great law? My master Whether I mean this day to end myself,

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I prest my footsteps into his, and meant
Surely to lead my Memmius in a train
Of flowery clauses onward to the proof
That Gods there are, and deathless. Greatly for them, nor rather plunge at

| Allotted by the Gods: but he that holds
The Gods are careless, wherefore need he

Meant? I meant?

care

once,

I have forgotten what I meant : my mind Being troubled, wholly out of sight, and Stumbles, and all my faculties are lamed.

sink

Past earthquake-ay, and gout and stone, that break

'But who was he, that in the garden snared

Body toward death, and palsy, death-in- Picus and Faunus, rustic Gods? a tale
life,
To laugh at-more to laugh at in myself-
And wretched age-and worst disease of For look! what is it? there? yon arbutus

all,

These prodigies of myriad nakednesses,
And twisted shapes of lust, unspeakable,
Abominable, strangers at my hearth
Not welcome, harpies miring every dish,
The phantom husks of something foully
done,

And fleeting thro' the boundless universe,
And blasting the long quiet of my breast
With animal heat and dire insanity?

Totters; a noiseless riot underneath Strikes through the wood, sets all the tops quivering

The mountain quickens into Nymph and Faun;

And here an Oread-how the sun delights To glance and shift about her slippery sides,

And rosy knees and supple roundedness, And budded bosom-peaks-who this way

runs

'How should the mind, except it loved Before the rest-A satyr, a satyr, see,

them, clasp

These idols to herself? or do they fly Now thinner, and now thicker, like the flakes

In a fall of snow, and so press in, perforce Of multitude, as crowds that in an hour Of civic tumult jam the doors, and bear The keepers down, and throng, their rags and they

The basest, far into that council-hall Where sit the best and stateliest of the land?

'Can I not fling this horror off me again,

Seeing with how great ease Nature can smile,

Balmier and nobler from her bath of

storm,

At random ravage? and how easily The mountain there has cast his cloudy slough,

Now towering o'er him in serenest air, A mountain o'er a mountain,—ay, and within

All hollow as the hopes and fears of men?

Follows; but him I proved impossible;
Twy-natured is no nature: yet he draws
Nearer and nearer, and I scan him now
Beastlier than any phantom of his kind
That ever butted his rough brother-brute
For lust or lusty blood or provender :
I hate, abhor, spit, sicken at him; and she
Loathes him as well; such a precipitate
heel,

Fledged as it were with Mercury's anklewing,

Whirls her to me: but will she fling herself, Shameless upon me? Catch her, goatfoot: nay,

Hide, hide them, million-myrtled wilder

ness,

And cavern-shadowing laurels, hide! do I wish

What? that the bush were leafless? or to

whelm

All of them in one massacre? O ye Gods, I know you careless, yet, behold, to you From childly wont and ancient use I callI thought I lived securely as yourselves — No lewdness, narrowing envy, monkey

spite,

No madness of ambition, avarice, none:
No larger feast than under plane or pine
With neighbours laid along the grass, to
take

Only such cups as left us friendly-warm,
Affirming each his own philosophy—
Nothing to mar the sober majesties
Of settled, sweet, Epicurean life.
But now it seems some unseen monster lays
His vast and filthy hands upon my will,
Wrenching it backward into his; and
spoils

My bliss in being; and it was not great; For save when shutting reasons up in rhythm,

Or Heliconian honey in living words,

'And therefore now

Let her, that is the womb and tomb of all, Great Nature, take, and forcing far apart Those blind beginnings that have made me man,

Dash them anew together at her will
Thro' all her cycles-into man once more,
Or beast or bird or fish, or opulent flower :
But till this cosmic order everywhere
Shatter'd into one earthquake in one day
Cracks all to pieces,-and that hour
perhaps

Is not so far when momentary man
Shall seem no more a something to himself,
But he, his hopes and hates, his homes
and fanes,

grave,

The very sides of the grave itself shall

To make a truth less harsh, I often grew And even his bones long laid within the
Tired of so much within our little life,
Or of so little in our little life-
Poor little life that toddles half an hour
Crown'd with a flower or two, and there
an end-

pass,

Vanishing, atom and void, atom and void, Into the unseen for ever,-till that hour, And since the nobler pleasure seems to My golden work in which I told a truth

fade,

Why should I, beastlike as I find myself, Not manlike end myself?—our privilege-What beast has heart to do it? And what man,

What Roman would be dragg'd in triumph thus?

That stays the rolling Ixionian wheel, And numbs the Fury's ringlet-snake, and

plucks

The mortal soul from out immortal hell, Shall stand: ay, surely: then it fails at last

And perishes as I must; for O Thou,

Not I; not he, who bears one name with Passionless bride, divine Tranquillity,

her

Yearn'd after by the wisest of the wise,

Whose death-blow struck the dateless Who fail to find thee, being as thou art Without one pleasure and without one pain,

doom of kings, When, brooking not the Tarquin in her veins,

She made her blood in sight of Collatine And all his peers, flushing the guiltless air, Spout from the maiden fountain in her heart.

And from it sprang the Commonwealth, which breaks

As I am breaking now!

Howbeit I know thou surely must be

mine

Or soon or late, yet out of season, thus
I woo thee roughly, for thou carest not
How roughly men may woo thee so they
win-

Thus-thus: the soul flies out and dies in the air.'

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