Running far on within its inmost halls, The home of darkness; but the cavernmouth, Half overtrailed with a wanton weed, Gives birth to a brawling brook, that passing lightly Adown a natural stair of tangled roots, Far lovelier than its cradle; for unseen, Spreads out a little lake, that, flooding, leaves Low banks of yellow sand; and from the What marvel my Camilla told me all? Dear name, which had too much of nearness in it And heralded the distance of this time! At first her voice was very sweet and low, As if she were afraid of utterance; But in the onward current of her speech (As echoes of the hollow-banked brooks Are fashion'd by the channel which they keep), Her words did of their meaning borrow sound, Her check did catch the color of her words. But still I kept my eyes upon the sky. While her words, syllable by syllable, But she spake on, for I did name no wish. Did tremble in their stations as I gazed; But she spake on, for I did name no wish, No wish-no hope. Hope was not wholly dead, But breathing hard at the approach of Camilla, my Camilla, who was mine There, where that day I crown'd myself as king, There in my realm and even on my throne, Another! Then it seem'd as tho' a link Of some tight chain within my inmost frame Was riven in twain: that life I heeded not Flow'd from me, and the darkness of the grave, The darkness of the grave and utter night, Then had the earth beneath me yawning With such a sound as when an iceberg splits From cope to base-had Heaven from all her doors, With all her golden thresholds clashing, roll'd Her heaviest thunder-I had lain as dead, Mute, blind and motionless as then I lay; Dead, for henceforth there was no life for me! Mute, for henceforth what use were words to me! Blind, for the day was as the night to me! The night to me was kinder than the day; Of him she brooded over. Would I had lain Until the plaited ivy-treɛs had wound Round my worn limbs, and the wild brier had driven Its knotted thorns thro' my unpaining brows, Leaning its roses on my faded eyes. The wind had blown above me, and the rain Had fall'n upon me, and the gilded snake Had nestled in this bosom-throne of Love, | Robed in those robes of light I must not But I had been at rest for evermore. Long time entrancement held me. All Life (like a wanton too-officious friend, Smote on my brows, and then I seem'd to Its murmur, as the drowning seaman hears, Who with his head below the surface Listens the muffled booming indistinct The white light of the weary moon above, it not well If so be that the echo of that name That ever lusted for a body, sucking There intheshuddering moonlight brought And what it has for eyes as close to mine The loved, the lover, the happy Lionel, Oh how her love did clothe itself in smiles Then when the effect weigh'd seas upon my head To come my way! to twit me with the cause! wear, With that great crown of beams about Come like an angel to a damned soul, Before he takes possession? Was mine & To be invaded rudely, and not rather And laid it in a sepulchre of rock 1 was the High Priest in her holiest place, And some few drops of that distressful rain Fell on my face, and her long ringlets moved, Drooping and beaten by the breeze, and My fallen forehead in their to and fro, And floated on and parted round her neck, Something she ask'd, I know not what, Unanswer'd, since I spake not; for the sound Was not the land as free thro' all her Of that dear voice so musically low, Fair speech was his and delicate of phrase, Falling in whispers on the sense, address'd More to the inward than the outward ear, As rain of the midsummer midnight soft, Scarce heard, recailing fragrance and the green Of the dead spring: but mine was wholly dead, No bud, no leaf, no flower, no fruit for me. Yet who had done, or who had suffer'd wrong? And why was I to darken their pure love, If, as I found, they two did love each other, Because my own was darken'd? Why was I To cross between their happy star and them? To stand a shadow by their shining doors, And vex them with iny darkness? Did I love her? Ye know that I did love her; to this present My full-orb'd love has waned not. Did I love her, And could I look upon her tearful eyes? What had she done to weep? Why should she weep? O innocent of spirit-let my heart Heaven Should kiss with an unwonted gentleness. Her love did murder mine? What then? She deem'd I wore a brother's mind: she call'd me brother: She told me all her love: she shall not weep. The brightness of a burning thought, awhile In battle with the glooms of my dark will, Moon-like emerged, and to itself lit up There on the depth of an unfathom'd woc Reflex of action. Starting up at once, As from a dismal dream of my own death, 1, for I loved her, lost my love in Love; 1, for I loved her, graspt the hand she lov'd, And laid it in her own, and sent my cry Thro' the blank night to Him who loving made The happy and the unhappy love, that He Would hold the hand of blessing over them, Lionel, the happy, and her, and her, his bride! Let them so love that men and boys may say, "Lo! how they love each other!" till their love Shall ripen to a proverb, unto all Known, when their faces are forgot in the land One golden dream of love, from which may death Awake them with heaven's music in a life More living to some happier happiness, Swallowing its precedent in victory. more. Deem that I love thee but as brothers do, So shalt thou love me still as sisters do; Or if thou dream aught farther, dream but how I could have loved thee, had there been none else To love as lovers, loved again by thee. Or this, or somewhat like to this, I spake, When I beheld her weep so ruefully; For sure my love should ne'er indue the front And mask of Hate, who lives on others' moans. Shall Love pledge Hatred in her bitter draughts, And batten on her poisons? Love forbid! Love passeth not the threshold of cold Hate, And Hate is strange beneath the roof of Love. O Love, if thou be'st Love, dry up these tears Shed for the love of Love; for tho' mine image, The subject of thy power, be cold in her, Yet, like cold snow, it melteth in the source Of these sad tears, and feeds their downward flow. So Love, arraign'd to judgment and to death, Received unto himself a part of blame, Being guiltless, as an innocent prisoner, Who, when the woful sentence hath been past, And all the clearness of his fame hath gone Beneath the shadow of the curse of man, First falls asleep in swoon, wherefrom awaked, And looking round upon his tearful friends, Forthwith and in his agony conceives So died that hour, and fell into the abysm Of forms outworn, but not to me outworn, Who never hail'd another--was there one? There might be one--one other, worth the life That made it sensible. So that hour died Like odor rapt into the winged wind Borne into alien lands and far away. There be some hearts so airily built, that they, They-when their love is wreck'd--if Love can wreck- On that sharp ridge of utmost doom ride highly That spired above the wood; and with mad hand Tearing the bright leaves of the ivy-screen, I cast them in the noisy brook beneath, And watch'd them till they vanish'd from my sight Beneath the bower of wreathed eglantines: And all the fragments of the living rock (Huge blocks, which some old trembling of the world Had lo sen'd from the mountain, till they fell Half digging their own graves) these in my agony Did I make bare of all the golden moss, Wherewith the dashing runnel in the spring Had liveried them all over. In my brain The spirit seem'd to flag from thought to thought, As moonlight wandering thro' a mist: my blood Crept like marsh drains thro' all my lan guid limbs; The motions of my heart seem'd far with And fused together a the tyrannous Were wrought into the tissue of my light Ruins, the ruin of all my life and me! Sometimes I thought Camilla was no more, Some one had told she was dead, and ask'd me If I would see her burial; then I seem'd To rise. and through the forest-shadow borne With more than mortal swiftness, 1 ran down The steepy sea-bank. till I came upon Wreathed round the bier with garlands: in the distance, From out the yellow woods upon the hill Were stoled from head to foot in flowing black: One walk'd abreast with me, and veil'd his brow, And he was loud in weeping and in praise Of her he follow'd: a strong sympathy Shook all my soul: I flung myself upon him In tears and cries: I told him all my love, How I had loved her from the first; whereat He shrank and howl'd, and from his brow drew back dream: The moanings in the forest, the loud brook, Cries of the partridge like a rusty key Turn'd in a lock, owl-whcop and dorhawk-whir Awoke me not, but were a part of sleep, And voices in the distance calling to me And in my vision bidding me dream on, Like sounds without the twilight realm of dreams, Which wander round the bases of the hills, And murmur at the low-dropt eaves of sleep, Half-entering the portals. Oftentimes The vision had fair prelude, in the end Opening on darkness, stately vestibules To caves and shows of Death: whether the mind, With some revenge,-even to itself unknown, Made strange division of its suffering With her, whom to have suffering view'd had been Extremest pain; or that the clear-eyed Spirit, Being blunted in the Present, grew at length Prophetical and prescient of whate'er Enchains belief, the sorrow of my spirit The day waned; Alone I sat with her: about my brow His hand to push me from him; and the Her warm breath floated in the utterance face, Of silver-chorded tones: her lips were sunder'd The very face and form of Lionel Flash'd thro my eyes into my innermost brain, And at his feet I seemed to faint and fall, To fall and die away. I could not rise Albeit I strove to follow. They past on, The lordly Phantasms! in their floating folds They past and were no more: but I had fallen Prone by the dashing runnel on the grass. Alway the inaudible invisible thought Artificer and subject, lord and slave, Shaped by the audible and visible, Moulded the audible and visible; All crisped sounds of wave and leaf and wind Flatter'd the fancy of my fading brain; The cloud-pavilion'd element, the wood, The mountain, the three cypresses, the cave, Storm, sunset, glows and glories of the moon Below black firs, when silent-creeping winds Laid the long night in silver streaks and bars, With smiles of tranquil bliss, which broke in light Like morning from her eyes-her eloquent eyes (As I have seen them many a hundred times), Filled all with pure clear fire, thro' mine down rain'd Their spirit-searching splendors. As a vision Unto a haggard prisoner, iron-stay'd In damp and dismal dungeons underground, Confined on points of faith, when strength is shock'd With torment, and expectancy of worse Upon the morrow, thro' the ragged walls, All unawares before his half-shut eyes, Comes in upon him in the dead of night, And with the excess of sweetness and of awe, Makes the heart tremble, and the sight run over Upon his steely gyves; so those fair eyes Shone on my darkness, forms which ever stood Within the magic cirque of memory, |