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imparts tenderness to the proud, and the love of Anna Welford as affording an additional proof Claudine towards me was shown not only in of the noble and disinterested kindness of my words, but in every look and action, and gave to affianced bride. One morning, returning from her manners the only charms they wanted--those a long ride, I left my horse at the garden-gate

, of feeling and gentleness. Claudine, however, and proceeded towards the house to seek Clauhad evidently little sentiment naturally in her dine in the drawing-room. I heard the sounds composition; she preferred prose to poetry, and of a guitar as I approached, and the sweet tones instrumental to vocal compositions. Her draw- of an exquisite female voice. I was inexpressibly ings and paintings were correct, but lacked the delighted. As it is never the custom of the soul of the artist; and she had, as she confessed English to make music a part of the entertainto me, been always in the habit of ridiculing and ment of a morning visit, and as no guests were blaming attachments formed on the acquaintance staying at the house, I felt convinced that Clauof a few days, until her own experience told her dine herself was the vocalist, and that, like the that it would be better to leave the subject at Lady of Munster, in Haynes Bayly’s pleasing rest for the future. Some weeks elapsed; we little drama of 'Perfection,' she had kept secret visited among the neighbouring families as from me her possession of this charming acacknowledged lovers, and it was generally under-complishment that she might electrify me with stood that our union would take place when a a joyful surprise. I approached nearer, and year had elapsed from the time of my father's stood to listen; the song was · All that's bright death. One evening, I was reading aloud to must fade,' a fashionable and favourite air twenty Claudine and Mr. Delamere, when a paper years ago. Alas ! how often have I since thought dropped forth from the volume in my hand that that the words were an omen of the future fate had evidently been placed there for the purpose of the singer. I entered, fully expecting to of a mark. “I took it up; it contained some greet Claudine; but to my astonishment I found sweet and touching stanzas, elegantly written in that the songstress was a fair, fragile, and exa delicate female hand, and signed by the initials ceedingly lovely girl, whose clustering light of 'A. W:

brown ringlets, soft blue eyes, and timid softness “ ' I suppose they are some of Anna Welford's of demeanour offered a perfect contrast to the never ending, still beginning' effusions,' said personal and mental attainments of my dignified Claudine, somewhat scornfully.

and self-possessed Claudine. I immediately con" • Who is Anna Welford ?''I eagerly inquired. cluded the stranger to be Anna Welford, and

““I think,' replied Mr. Delamere, 'I can endeavoured to persuade her to indulge me with answer your question more justly than Claudine, another air; but her manner displayed evident because she may not be inclined to be the herald trepidation. She answered me in monosyllables

, of her own good deeds. At the school where and hastily gathering her songs together, quitted iny daughter finished her education, she formed the room; nor did I see her again till we were an intimacy with Anna Welford, the daughter of all assembled at dinner. Let me pass briefly a West India merchant reputed to be very rich; over the incidents of the next few days. I do but his death revealed the fact that his affairs not pretend to defend my conduct; I was were involved past the possibility of extrication, wrong-culpably wrong-in loving Anna Weland Anna had no resource but to become de- ford; but unless you could have seen and known pendent on an aunt possessing a very slender her, you can have no idea of the temptation that life-annuity, or to accept the proposal of her I felt to do so." governess to become a teacher in the establish- “I confess,” said Dr. Walwyn, “I have no ment-an office for which her exceeding delicacy particular predilection for fragile young ladies of frame and diffidence of disposition very ill with clustering light brown ringlets, who only qualified her. My dear Claudine was then on answer in monosyllables.” the point of leaving school; she wrote instantly “ Her silence and hesitation,” replied D'Arcy, to me, entreating that I would comply with her “did not, as I soon discovered, proceed from request, and suffer her home to be also the home want of intellect, but from the subjection in of her friend. I hesitated to give my consent, which she was held by her patroness; there were a perpetual inmate in the house is rather an moments, however, when I was alone with her, awful'idea; but I allowed Claudine to invite and others in which, although in the midst of Anna to pass a few weeks with us; and the company, I obtained the privilege of conversing gratitude, mildness, and modesty of the poor with her. Pity first occasioned love in me, girl so won upon me, that she finally became gratitude caused her to reciprocate it, and condomesticated in our family.'

geniality of tastes and pursuits cemented the “ • How is it, then, that I have never seen | bond. Our affection, however, was implied, not her?' I asked, feeling a little apprehensive that declared; our words were only those of friends, the domestication' of the fair Anna might prove and I am persuaded nothing could be further to be in the housekeeper's room.

from the intentions of either of us than to deceive "She has been visiting her aunt,' replied the confidence and injure the peace of the Mr. Delamere,' who has been seriously ill, but generous Claudine.” is now recovered, and Anna will very shortly “And how did the generous Claudine approve return to us.'

the progression of your platonic intimacy?" “ The entrance of visitors put a stop to our asked the doctor. conversation, and I only afterwards thought of “ She was not aware of the full extent of it,"

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197 answered D'Arcy; "and was also in the habit of , regained her self-possession, mentioned the cause considering Anna so immeasurably inferior to of her return in a few measured, freezing words, herself in every respect, that she would have and had taken the book and re-ascended the shrunk from the degradation of suspecting her carriage before I was rightly aware whether I to be a rival. At last, however, a fatal accident had gazed on a spectre or a reality.” caused the disclosure of my feelings. Claudine “And the sobs of your fair Anna doubtless had accepted the pressing invitation of a young redoubled in consequence of this episode in your friend residing at the distance of a few miles conversation,” said Dr. Walwyn. from Southland House, to be present at her No," replied D'Arcy; " Anna, although a wedding as bridesmaid. She was to go to the timid, was not a weak-minded girl; she dried house of her friend on the preceding day to her tears immediately, bitterly reproached herthat appointed for the marriage; the carriage self for her ingratitude to her generous friend, came to the door; I handed her into it, and saw and declared her resolution of instantly returning it drive off at a rapid pace. I then returned to to the house of her aunt. I did not attempt to the drawing-room, where I had left Anna sketch- renew my addresses to her; I was convinced, as ing; but she had taken advantage of my short well as herself, that we had been acting a selfish absence to make her escape, feeling, as it was and a culpable part, which would not bear probably just and wise for her to do, that my reflection. I dissuaded her, however, from society might be dangerous to her, and that her leaving the house until she had requested the surest safety lay in flight. In her rapid retreat, permission of Claudine to do so, telling her that however, she had forgotten to secure her port- the best reparation we could make to her whom folio; and I eagerly sat down to examine it, we had injured would be to submit ourselves since it was with difficulty I could ever prevail implicitly to her direction, and to act in such a on her to show me any of her drawings. I had manner as would, in her own opinion, be most scarcely begun to look over them, when she re- conducive to her peace. Anna retired to her turned, agitated and trembling, and requested room, under the plea of indisposition, and did me to restore her portfolio. I playfully persisted not quit it during the remainder of the day; and in retaining it; but her anxiety to gain possession I employed the next hour in addressing a long of it was so evident and unaffected, that I re- letter to Claudine, and directed my valet to ride linquished my opposition, and placed it in her over with it, and to inform her that he would hand. She attempted to fasten the strings, but call for an answer on the ensuing morning. her trepidation was so great that it fell from her The man did not appear in the least surprised at hand, and its contents became scattered on the my orders, deeming it, I suppose, very probable carpet.. I did not imagine I could be doing that engaged lovers should wish to correspond wrong in assisting her to gather them up, not- daily; and I felt an unspeakable relief in the withstanding her repeated entreaties that I would reflection that I could write to Claudine, instead desist; but her uneasiness was quickly ac- of undergoing the trial of an immediate intercounted for, when I beheld among her sketches view with her. I related to her the plain and an admirable and spirited likeness of myself. simple facts of the case, exonerated Anna from I could not conclude that she had merely chosen all blame in wishing to attract me, and concluded me as a suitable subject for her pencil; her tears, by expressing to her the contrition and sorrow her embarrassment, her entreaties that I would that we both suffered under, and our wish to be endeavour to forget I had ever seen the sketch immediately separated from each other should it in question--all combined to convince me that meet her approbation. Having despatched this I was the beloved of Anna Welford's young and letter, I prepared myself for a téte-à-tête dinner gentle heart. Walwyn, blame me, despise me if with the worthy, unsuspecting Mr. Delamere, you will. I fell at'her feet, and owned my who, 'good, easy man,' had not the slightest affection!”

idea of the contending feelings that had been And I conclude,” said Dr. Walwyn,“ she racking the hearts of his family on that eventful adhered to her old habit of answering in mono- morning, but who imagined that everything was syllables, and favoured you with the sweetest and going on precisely as it ought to do-jested with most comprehensive of all monosyllables in reply me on my want of appetite, which he imputed to to your address.”

the absence of my ladye love,' expressed his “She answered me only with sobs,” said concern for poor Anna Welford's delicacy of D'Arcy; “ but was on the point of raising me constitution, and concluded by drawing a vivid from my kneeling position, when the door imaginary tableau of the wedding on the morrow, opened, and Claudine stood before us!” in which a particularly handsome bridesmaid, in

Having, I suppose," said the doctor, a lilac satin dress, occupied a conspicuous station. turned for the purpose of watching you.”

The next day I received the answer of Claudine; “Not so," replied D'Arcy; "she merely re

she began by pointing out, with much spirit and turned to take a music-book from the piano, a little severity, the reprehensible line of conduct which her servants had neglected to place, as pursued by Anna and myself. desired, in the carriage, and she was totally unprepared for the scene that met her eyes. I be. Pride had been the ruling passion of my soul till

Judge,' she proceeded, 'what my feelings must shall never forget the lightning-glance of anger love shared in its sovereignty; now are pride and love and disdain which she cast on Anna and myself; both equally and cruelly wounded. He who had it was but for a moment, however; she instantly assured me that I possessed his heart, and had received

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The Dream of the Affianced. mine in exchange, transfers his affections to another, of it except Mr. Delamere, and he dismissed the and she whom he selects is in every respect my subject with the brief observation that bashinferior—the partaker of my bread—the creature of fulness generally grew upon a girl; but that, my bounty. When I said, however, that love and after all, it was a fault upon the right side !' pride possessed the joint sovereignty of my heart, I expressed myself unadvisedly; they have experienced

"Prosperously as my courtship

with Claudine a severe contest, but the former has gained

the victory: felt truly grateful when an occurrence took place

proceeded, I could not forget the past; and I forgiveness you solicit

. I cannot allow of Anna which gave me a fair opportunity of quitting the Welford's departure, lest the cause of it should be hospitable roof of Mr. Delamere for a short suspected. The trials that I endured yesterday did time. not cease with those of the morning; in the evening “My father, during his youth, had resided for a busy friend, with affected concern, but real triumph, some years in Scotland, and had purchased an warned me to be careful not to permit my lover estate in the neighbourhood of Edinburgh, to converse too frequently with my lovely protegée, which of course, on his death, became my prosince his attentions to her had been the subject of perty. I was anxious to dispose of it, and had remain at Southland House, and be as happy as her recently received an offer for it from a gentleconscience will allow her to be ; I shrink from the man in the immediate vicinity, which I felt inthought that the late unhappy events should become clined to accept: my solicitor, however, was of the jest of society, and grieve the kind and trusting opinion that the sum offered was too small. heart of my excellent father. To abate any un- The solicitor on the other side spoke of dilapia easiness that Anna and yourself may feel in the dations which diminished the value, and I was anticipation of my return, let me assure you that it advised to take down a surveyor with me into is my intention never, directly or indirectly, to allude Scotland, and ascertain the real state of the to the past.'

case. When I arrived I found the business more

complicated than I had supposed. Some former “I did not quite like the lofty style of this let-friends of my father invited me to their houses, ter, and did not approve of the allusion to poor and showed me numerous kind attentions; and Anna’s conscience, or of the avowal that she several weeks passed on, during which I could considered her as the creature of her bounty: only converse with Claudine by letter. She

was but I could not wonder that one even less proud no loser, however, by this change. Her letters than Claudine should feel aggrieved and insulted were eloquent, refined, and affectionate, and exby such an injury as I had intlicted on her; and cited in me a feeling of exultation that I could I determined, since she had pronounced the claim the writer of them as my own. My heart pardon I solicited, to do all in my power to was also drawn towards Claudine from the cirprove myself worthy of it. I told Anna the cumstance that I had wronged her, and she had contents of Claudine's letter, although I did forgiven ine; and if I ever suffered myself for a not wound her by repeating the exact words of moment to dwell on her occasional hauteur and it, and we prepared ourselves to receive her on disdain, the remembrance of my own incon, the ensuing day, with downcast eyes and beat- stancy flashed across my mind, and I felt that I ing hearts ; Mr. Delamere congratulating us all was unworthy to be loved and valued by a the time on the happiness in store for us, and woman so high-minded and so true-hearted. I remarking that we had seemed quite dull and had written a long and affectionate letter to her; lost without dear Claudine !'

several days elapsed : she did not answer it as “ Claudine arrived : she was true to her promise usual. I was surprised and alarmed; it was the in making no allusion to the past, and none but first time she had ever failed in punctuality. I the guilty could have detected any change in her wrote again, and in a short time received an look. I could not, however, but feel her occa- answer directed in the hand of Mr. Dela. sional glance of distrust at myself, and the mere. The paper was black-bordered; the seal haughty, contemptuous coldness of her manner was of the same sable hue. I did not dare to towards Anna. În a few days I began to lose open it: I felt a terrible foreboding that somewhat of my painful embarrassment. I was Claudine was no more--that wounded pride and struck by the resolution and self-command of affection had been slowly consuming her while Claudine in concealing from her father the pro- striving to appear happy and confiding in the vocation that she had received from me, and eyes of the world, and of her false lover and gratified by the excess of love which I felt could friend, and that my protracted stay in Scotland be the only cause of her forbearance. I de- had probably appeared to her anxious and fearplored indeed, sincerely, the situation of poor ful mind to be wilfully and deliberately contrived Anna; but since it appeared that my notice of for the purpose of affording me the means of her had already given rise to injurjous rumours, freeing myself from an engagement of which I I felt that it was due to her respectability, as had become weary. Conscience-stricken and well as to the dignity of Claudine, that I should trembling, I stood with the letter in my hand, withdraw all attentions from her; and although dreading to open it, and to find my apprehenI fear my eyes sometimes expressed commisera- sions realized.” At length, by a strong effort, I tion and interest more forcibly than the eyes of broke open the seal : alas ! how sad were the an affianced man ought to do, my lips were tidings conveyed by that letter! Claudine was silent. Anna became more and more reserved indeed living, but Death had been busy in her and retiring, but no one seemed to take notice dwelling, and the victim on whom he had seized

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was the sweet Anna Welford! The letter of Mr. Then on, in thy youth, ere the dark days shall be, Delamere was written with great feeling, de- Go forward, and Fame on thy footsteps shall wait, scribing himself, and still more his daughter, Let the “Good Cause” shine forth in its beauty overwhelmed with grief at the loss

in thee, of their gentle, amiable, and unoffending com

Then, in life or in death, thou art dear to the

State. panion. Anna, he said, had a fortnight ago been attacked by influenza-a complaint very Say what field dost make choice of, thine honours prevalent in the neighbourhood.

The phy

to win? sician in the neighbouring town saw her daily, With what arms wilt thou gird thee to rush to the and said in a few days that the worst symptoms strife ? were over, and that she had now merely to at- Lo! we tell thee, go forth mid the tumult and din tend to warmth and quiet : suddenly, however, Of the closely fought struggle, “The Battle of a fearful relapse took place, and in a few hours

Life!" Anna was removed from the world. Her last words, continued Mr. Delamere, 'were to

Let the “Good Cause" be Virtue, beloved for her thank Claudine for all her kindness, and to en

worth, treat her forgiveness for the wrong she had done

And the far-spreading empire to which ye belong

Be the whole human race on the surface of earth, her-a sure proof that the poor girl's senses And sustain ye the weak when oppress'd by the were wandering, for she would not wrong the strong. lowest and meanest of human beings, and especially Claudine, whom she had always re

Be thy sword “ a firm spirit," of temper so true garded with almost idolatrous admiration and

As never to falter or swerve in the tight; gratitude. I severely feel the loss of this sweet And though often the foe may the conflict renew, and endearing girl, but I still more deeply feel

Let its blade in each action gleam radiantly bright. for the change that it has wrought in Claudine. Make it serve thee for falchion, and also for shield, I could not have believed that she would have

Thy means of attack and thy permanent ward, mourned for her friend so intensely and so de- For, ever on duty whilst holding the field, votedly: she literally refuses to be comforted. Thou boldly and firmly must stand on thy guard. She passes almost the whole of the day in soli. tude and weeping; and I should be seriously Be thy breast-plate the conscience, unsullied by stain unhappy on her account, were it not for the con- Of unworthy intention, howe'er thou may'st fail soling idea that Time heals much heavier The height of perfection in deed to attain, calamities than hers, and that your presence,

For clouds round thy pathway shall ofttimes which I trust will not be much longer delayed,

prevail. will be the surest way to revive her drooping Be the helmet, that shelters and covers thine head, spirits.

The fond prayers of those thou hast aided and “I brought my affairs rapidly to a termination bless'd; in Scotland, and bent my way to Southland For, who through that sad scene of struggle hath House. The unlooked-for sensibility displayed

sped, by Claudine had greatly raised her in my esti- Nor shewn kindness to friend or to comrade dis. mation, and I resolved to suppress as much as

tress'd! possible in her presence my own grief for the loss of Anna, that she might not imagine I was

Never shrink from a duty, though oft it may prove clinging to the idea of her in death, whom I had When occasion requires ; make the vigorous move,

Unpleasant or arduous; yield no delay loved above all others in life. It was a source of great comfort to me to reflect that Anna had not

Though Ease may oft shrink from the skirmish

away. fallen a victim to sorrow and disappointment; but that she had been carried off by a complaint Hold thy post still undaunted, whatever befall, that might equally attack the most healthy and Nor faint through the storm nor the combat's prosperous : and when I reflected on the happi- rude shock : ness that she was now enjoying, and the trials Till the “ Lord of the Battle” shall sound thy recall, and troubles which would probably have been

Oh! be firm midst all ills as the deep-seated rock. her portion in life, I felt resigned to the dispen- On the broad sphere of action, the scene of the strife, sation of Providence.

Are veterans whose locks have grown grey in the (To be concluded in our next.)

war ; And young blooming warriors with earnestness rife,

With beauty unblemish'd as yet by a scar.

And womanhood renders her powerful aid ;
THE BATTLE OF LIFE.

And childhood is there in the midst of the fire ;
And bold warriors their bravest exertions have made,
When cheer'd on by the groups that have hailed

them as sire. Dost thou long for the battle, oh! proud heart of Man ?

Some sappers and miners are ever at hand Do visions of glory shed light on thy dreams? To work 'neath the surface in darkness and night ; Wouldst thou strive to ennoble thy fast fleeting span, And the bold pioneers, an industrious band,

And entwine thee a wreath of all-glorious beams ? Obtain for their comrades a fair field of fight.

BY MRS. EDWIN HANCOCK.

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Oh, beautiful! I deemed my heart

Had said farewell without regret; But ah ! 'tis only when we part,

We feel how precious life is yet.

And subalterns calmly are led to their post ;

The chiefs who direct by the thought and the brain ; The ensign who bears the bold flag of the host;

All, all are as links in one beautiful chain. And chieftains and host, 'neath the leader's control,

Obey his behests, carry forward his will ; They know but in part, He doth compass the whole,

And eternal his love, and consummate his skill. Look round with an eye of attention, and see

How differing the parts to the soldiers assigned : Some ever in action seem destined to be,

Whilst some to comparative ease are confined.

We feel, though bright that higher sphere

For which life's weary pilgrims pine, God hath assigned sweet blessings here,

Like my heart's love, in love of thine.

Nay, do not weep-thou'st been to me

A kind, dear friend, through weal and woe; And yet, perchance, it comforts thee

To let these drops of anguish flow.

I will not bid thee stay thy tears,

They speak the heart's undying love; But think, we part a few short years

To meet, in happier times, above.

Yet they have their warfare: to calmly be still

Is oft keener struggle than braving the fire ; But Discipline recks not of passionate will,

And Obedience each soldier is bound to acquire. Perchance the position where thou mayst be placed Were the last thou hadst chosen, had choice been

thine own; Yet the “Great Leader's” wisdom may often be

traced When the rush of the conflict is over and gone.

Look at yon cot; thou hast a tie;

A mother's heart should never break; Thou'lt see him grow beneath thine eye,

And love him for his father's sake.

And whatever the office in which thou must move,

Do thy best its requirements to wisely fulfil ; Be it lowly, thy grace may its aspect improve ;

If arduous, 'twill show forth thy valour and skill. Then on this field of battle go win thee a name

That shall tell of the glory and triumphs of Mind, Light the Cavern of Death with a time-honoured

Fame, And prove thee a blessing and boon to mankind. Bath, Dec. 10, 1847.

I know thou'lt teach bis steps to walk

In virtue's sweet and cheering way; And, when thou hear'st his prattling talk,

'Twill shorten many a dreary day. I would not break his peaceful rest,

Yet I would kiss my child again, And press him to a father's breast

In one last, fond, and lingering strain !

He doth not wake-yet one more kiss

Another-oh, my child, my child ! How little did I prize the bliss

When first thy beaming features smiled.

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