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where I lived, my lot has been chan- which I happened to be aware. To ged. He turned away from me the this he assented, and we soon reachfountain whence flowed all my glad- ed Mr H.'s handsome rooms in ness; he won from me the jewel of Lincoln's Inn. I repeated to him my life, and misfortune since has the facts that made it impossible for fallen upon me, through my own Mr R. to meet his friend. fault. I have felt as a man, but have “ It is very awkward,” he said. not reasoned and struggled as a man. “ Do you act as Mr Ri's friend in I have lived alone for months. Last this affair ?” night I was induced to join society
“ Not in the sense that you peragain, and there was he too-the one haps use the term. I only come to fated to destroy me. You know assure you, on my own personal what passed. The purport of his knowledge, of the utter impossibienquiry as we came out, was to learn lity of Mr R. meeting you, or any where I might be found this morn- one else, at present, except in his ing. I did not like to name this sick chamber. I believe him to be sorry place, and told him I would be
very seriously ill.” found in the Gray's Inn Coffee- " It is a pity,” he replied, " that House, at ten o'clock. What is to those who are liable to such sudden be done? It is agony to seem to attacks are not more careful in the fear him."
use of expressions for which they He could proceed no further, and may be called upon personally to covered his face with his hands. answer."
“ Be calm," I said; “ I will go to “That observation," I said, “is the place you have appointed, and hardly necessary to me. I come see his friend; but is this not your here merely to pledge myself, that first quarrel with him ?”
the reason of Mr R. not meeting " It is. I have suspected that I your friend this morning is bodily was ill used by him; but it is my inability; and having so pledged myown foolish heart to which I owe self, you will perceive that I can my misery. He may not have been allow no insinuation of want of disto blame. I never spoke to him position on his part to keep his apuntil last night.”
pointment. I myself restrained him " Enough. I will now go. I have in an attempt to rise from his bed.” a friend in the medical profession “ Well, sir,” said Mr H., “so the who lives near this. I will send him matter must rest for the present. But to you as quickly as possible; but, it cannot end thus : when Mr R. gets tell me where I shall look for a card well, it must be settled.” with your address ?”
“ I much doubt that he will ever “ Oh yes; you act a brother's get well,” I replied. part by me, and yet do not know “In that case the affair will settle my name. It is Charles
Ritself,” he rejoined. My father was Major R— of the And this is humanity and social
- regiment; he fell at Waterloo.” life, thought I, as I turned away, and I remembered that I had heard went to the chambers of my friend the name before, though not in con- M., where we had been the night nexion with Waterloo; but there before. I found him arraying himwas no time for further speech. I self in a new gown and wig, and pregot to Gray's Inn, just as the clock paring to make his first appearance struck ten, having called on the in Court. I told him what I had been doctor in my way, and urged him about, and all that had happened, and to lose no time in visiting Mr R. asked him what he knew of R., in
I left word at the bar, that if any whom I had taken so great an inteone asked for him, he should be rest. brought to me; and I had not long “Poor fellow!” he said, “I am very to wait before a gentleman appear- sorry for him. I know him only as ed, and was conducted to the place a literary man of great promise, whom where I was sitting. I explained to I have heard very highly spoken of, him the reason that Mr R. could and I used to meet him frequently, not keep his appointment, and of- until five or six months ago.' Since fered to go with him to Mr H., then, it appears he has shut himand tell him the circumstances of self up, and has gone nowhere. When I met him the other day, he “He is delirious," said I, as I ensaid he had been ill, but was much tered my friend the Doctor's room. better; and I pressed him to come “So soon !” he replied, with a cooland be of our party last night, as a ness, that half provoked and half compersonal compliment to me. I am forted me; “'delirium was to be exvery sorry for what has happened. I pected—his fever was violent when thought H. had forgotten it; but he I saw him—the inflammation was is so cool.”
very great in the vessels of the “ But,” said I, “can you tell me if head." R. has friends in London-con- Poor R.'s delirium lasted for a nexions, I mean - or intimate good many days—his complaint was friends ?”
a severe brain fever; and the Doctor “ Not that I know of at present," said, that but for a very strong natuhe replied. “He was very intimate ral constitution, the exhaustion must with two friends of mine in the Tem- have killed him. I wrote for his ple, where I used to meet him; but mother the second day of his illness, they are now both on the Conti- and she instantly came up to town. nent."
She was indeed a woman for a son In the course of the day, I returned to love, and oh! with what untiring to the chamber of my sick friend. vigilance and tenderness she watched He was no better; he insisted on try- over him—what dignity and sweeting to write a letter, but found it im- ness of demeanour did she maintain possible, as he said, to think of what all through that terrible scene of he wanted to say.
doubt and danger, while the being “ This is very dreadful,” he add- she loved and respected most in the ed, catching hold of my hand; “but world lay tossing delirious upon his when I cannot, you will write to my bed of pain-perhaps his deathbed. mother. Promise me that you will.” The ninth night he fell into a sleep.
“ Certainly,” I replied ; “ but tell I called to enquire for him about me where I shall write to."
eleven o'clock; and while he slept, He told me the name of the place I prevailed upon his mother to go to in Sussex, and then, after a long si- rest in an adjoining room, I keeping lence, he began:-“You asked where watch meanwhile by his bedside, for my mother lived-in the clouds-in the nurse had to be turned out of the clouds-up high in the clouds, to the room—she could do nothing but be sure; and my father waving the sleep and snore. colours of his regiment over her.” I shall never forget the still awe
How awful is delirium! To face a of the two hours that followed, the frantic man waving a drawn sword, sick man before me, pale as death, would give me little feeling of terror, and sleeping, it might be his last compared with that which freezes sleep-no sound save the small tick, my blood, when the invisible mind tick, of the watch upon the mantel. exhibits its derangement, and wild piece-the very dead hour of the words are poured out without the night, and no foot stirring in the government of reason. For a mo
street, for it is not a thoroughfare. I ment I could hardly comprehend felt oppressed, as if I myself could what was the matter. " What do you hardly breathe. I tried to read, but mean?” I said, turning to the bed- could not; prayer was the fitting side.
occupation for such a time and place. It was not my fault,” he again I knelt down at the bedside. When burst forth, " she was so very beau. I lifted up my head, to arise from tiful-and talked so gently—but then my kneeling posture, I found the that horrid black cloud ; and the sick man's mother kneeling with me, serpent"
her gaze intently fixed upon her son's « My God!” said I," this is dread- face, and her lips slightly moving, but ful;" and I seized my bat and rushed without a sound. She had come into out of the room, to bring my medical the room and knelt down so quietly, friend without delay. Fortunately I that I had not heard her. As we arose met upon the stairs a nurse whom together, the huge bell of the clock he had sent, for he had been at the of Saint Paul's boomed forth the house, and seen his patient in the hour of one ; and considerable as the morning.
distance was, I could hear the vibra.
tions gradually dying away through ning of our acquaintance, which my the silence of the night. The sick wretched state, and your active man slightly stirred, and his mother, kindness, soon ripened into friendwith a handkerchief of the lightest ship that I think cannot end but texture, gently wiped his lips, and with my life.” still looked full in his face ;-never “ Then I trust it will long long was the intense agony of mental continue,” said I, "and that it may, anxiety more touchingly expressed you must be cheerful, and when you than in that tranquil earnest gaze. The get strong enough, apply your mind sleeper stirred again, sighed, opened to pursuits in which it can scarcely his eyes, and was awake. He looked fail to make you successful and disabout, and shut his eyes again-his tinguished.” mother and myself stood still, breath- "I shall try," he replied, “but less with expectation. His eyes open- that brings me to the point at which ed again, and he faintly articulated— I wished to arrive. I want to tell you “ Where am I, mother ?—something for such a friend as you have been, terrible has been going on, I know deserves all my confidence-wbat and you have been with me-am I has been my course of life, and how at home?"
it has been interrupted.” My son! my son !” exclaimed Nothing could interest me more,” bis mother--and tears that had not I said. flowed during all his illness, now “You are aware,” he continued, gushed from her eyes. “ You have “that I lost my father at Waterloobeen very ill, but God has been mer- I was then ten years old-there were ciful, and you are now better-but I four of us, I have two brothers and will tell you all to-morrow-you must a sister. My mother's heart was speak no more now.” She kissed almost broken, and for a long time, him, and he sank again into slumber. all was woe and gloom and confu.
With silent and fearful joy, she sion in our house. At length my accompanied me to the door of the mother roused herself from the deep room ; then she clasped my hands, and distressing stupor of her grief, and said, “The danger, I trust, is for it was necessary to attend to our over now—God be praised! and oh, worldly affairs, and see to our future sir ! forgive me if I have not before support. Upon a settlement of my spoken to you a mother's grateful father's affairs, there was found to thanks, which an anxious heart did be no more than barely enough to not the less feel. May Heaven's maintain us respectably. It had blessing, and a grateful parent's been intended that I should be eduprayers, bring peace and joy to your cated for Oxford-that was necessaheart, and avert from you all evil.” rily given up, but still no pains were
I walked home in tears that spared on our education. The pen. night, for my heart was full; but it sion which, as an officer's widow, my was full of serious happiness. mother was allowed, she devoted to
From that night R. slowly but the payment of a private tutor, who steadily got better. It was nearly lived in the house with us; and the a month afterwards, and his mother fault was our own, if, under his care, had been gone home some days, that we did not imbibe enough of the best I sat beside him on his sofa, and sort of learning. These, indeed, were after a thoughtful pause, he asked happy days. My mother, if never me if I had seen Mr H. since the absolutely gay, became sedately morning that he was to have met cheerful-while my brothers and him. I told him I had not, but myself were with our tutor, she dethat he had better not trouble his voted herself much to my sister's mind with the recollection of that education, and we all assembled affair.
every evening, and rambled about “I do not wish to revive it,” he together, or read and talked, a most said, “I seem as if I had passed over united and happy family. a gulf since that time, which sepa- “As I grew up, it was resolved rates me from all the bitter and an- that I should study for the Bar; but, gry feelings which then burned with- in the mean time, an ardent taste for in me, but I was led to ask the ques- general literature had led me to make tion from calling to mind the begin. some attempts, which, by the kind
ness of a country friend who had li- did and said. When she spoke to
- I did bear her talk
that float athwart a summer sky. Mine “At first when I arrived in Lon- wanted but the touch of jealousy to don, all went well, and but too happily. burst out into flame and agony-hers I had as much as it was convenient were but the calm sentiments of li. for me to do in employment which king and esteem, if they even went I liked, and my circumstances were thus far. easy; but the charm of my existence “ The Mr H. whom you met the was in the new home to which I had other night, came to live in the house. been introduced.”
How he happened to be received Here my friend paused, and tears there I cannot tell ; for its mistress filled his eyes.—"My nervesbave was particular to admit no one that been so weakened by this illness," was not well recommended; but he said he,“ that I cannot tell my story came, and won from me that which without more emotion than I expect. I then found how much I prized. I ed; but I will go on.
bated him from the moment I saw “ The lady of the house, a very him enter the door. I never spoke excellent person in her way, had a to him—the light scornfulness of his niece living with her, and who had talk made me despise him too much; lived with her, as I understood, for but he had studied the art of pleaabout a year before I came to reside sing womankind, and his personal atunder the same roof. She was an tractions made the task all the easier. orphan; her father, who was a clergy. I need not go over the history of his man, had been dead a good many attentions to Maria, and the gradual years; her mother, who had been, I appearance of her dislike-yes, her was told, a very accomplished woman, dislike for me. I left the house in died also a short time before the young despair. I cared not where I went, lady of whom I speak had come to live so that I might be alone. I could no with her aunt. I heard that much pains longer apply my mind to my accushad been bestowed by her mother tomed avocations. My finances sunk upon Maria's (I mean the young la- in consequence, and I therefore condy's) education; and I can well be- tented myself with the badly furlieve it. Never were exquisite beau- nished and worse attended place to ty, and the most touching sweetness which you assisted me on that unof disposition, more worthy of what- fortunate night. It was the first time ever culture could do to adorn them I had been in society for six months, with all womanly accomplishments. and I endeavoured to force myself Gracefulness hovered about her into spirits fit for it. You know the every step and motion--elegance and rest.” gentleness were combined in all she “ And have you heard,” asked I,
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with some curiosity," what was the pointedly enough, that having a great result of Mr Hi's attentions to this desire to explain to me what must young lady?”
have seemed rude and harsh conduct "Nothing-nothing. From the day on her part, and that of her inI left the house where then they both mates, and not knowing where I lilived, until this day, I have endea- ved, she had determined to avail hervoured to make my heart as it were self of the opportunity of our accia heart of iron, to all thought of her dental meeting, to speak to me.that fascinated, and then repelled "You must have observed, sir,' she me.”
went on, that after the unfortunate “But think you the designs of H. arrival of Mr H. at my house, our were honourable ?”
manner was soon changed towards “ No-I think he sought the tri- you.' I had not observed any change umph of gaining the affections of so in the good lady's manner, for which lovely a creature, and I doubt not be
you will easily account, but I let her succeeded. Perhaps he was wretch proceed without interruption. The enough to aim at the ruin of her fact is, that Mr H. thought it necesbody and her soul, for the gratifica- sary to get you out of the house, be. tion of his fiend-like lust; but in cause you could understand him, that I am full sure he would never and were a check upon him. He told succeed. Once she knew his impuri. us the worst stories of you.'— And ty, she would flee from him as from then, sir, she went into a detail of a wild beast; but her affections may slanders that set me mad. She conhave been won, and then trampled fessed that she and her niece had beupon, and her heart may have been lieved this villain, and had consetorn and crushed, as mine has been.” quently treated me with coolness, to
I endeavoured to turn my friend's induce me to leave the house. A mind to more cheering thoughts, and month or two, however, discovered then left him, much interested in his to them the character of the aban. past story and future fate.
doned libertine they had listened to, My affairs about this time called and he was turned out of the house me out of town for a week. The with indignation; the introduction first evening after my return I called he had come with was discovered to upon R., whom I had left fast at- be false, though he took care to avoid taining to perfect health. I found forgery, by making it a verbal one him with a number of papers on the merely, which, with his plausible table, at which he had been writing. manner, was sufficient. Part of what As I entered, he was walking up and he had said about me was discovered down the room. He ran to me, and to be a lie, and the rest was not beshook me earnestly by the hand. lieved. • My niece,' said the old “ Thank God you are come,” said he. lady, and with this concluded her
“ Wbat is the meaning of this agi- story, 'has scarcely held up her head tation ?" I replied;"you alarm me.” since the discovery of the base man's
“ Listen,” he said; “ I am going infamous intentions.' to make further demands upon your “ You may judge the state of fury friendship-but first let me explain into which I was driven by this rewhat has happened. My cousin, cital,” continued R., as he walked Captain M., came to town yesterday about the room in the utmost excitemorning, and called upon me with ment. “I joined my cousin, and inletters from home. I walked out stantly asked him to go on my part with him to the Park. We there to demand satisfaction of H.The met the lady in whose house I told villain had the insolence to tell him you I lived when I came to London. that he was glad I was at last ready I bowed, and intended to have passed to show myself, as he had been wait. on, but she turned back a step or two ing for some time to make a similar after me, and said, “That if I did not demand of me. But why occupy you happen to be particularly engaged, she with all this ? It is arranged that we wished much to speak a few words to meet to-morrow morning in Hydeme. Upon this my cousin left me, re- Park, immediately after six o'clock.” questing me to join him again in the I was petrified with surprise and interior
of the Park when I was ready. grief. “Good God!” I said, “ is The lady then told me briefly and there pothing to be done to avert